FIVE (4, 3, 2, 1)

**originally written last July 2012



It was Bryan who reminded me that we are 5 months away from our big day.  That woke me up for he also sent me this text/reminder/message at around 6 am.  Five seems very real and near. 


5-4-3-2-1. 


At this time, I strongly feel two things – excited and apprehensive.  Excited because I just want to get married!!!  My mind and heart are so into it that I just want to plunge.  This causes me to be lazy to start or continue with anything because I know it would change drastically after saying “I do”.  Two of the changes are the two newest words in my life MRS and SADORRA. Naks naman!  I imagine myself lining up then someone will call me, “Misis, ikaw na po”.  Haha

Another major change is my moving out from my parents -- away from the beautiful south.  We are planning to stay in his home in Manila where we could totally and function as one (only the 2 of us in one abode).  I am delighted to manage a home and a husband.  I know it won’t be easy, but I am excited for this -- so let me be!haha.  Nevertheless, 1 of the downsides would be leaving my home church (blog to follow), but I am still grateful and thrilled for these changes. I know this is what God wants. 

However, this biggest decision that I have made in my life also makes me uneasy.  I can’t point my finger to anyone or to something – it is just the thought that we are so near the finish line (at least for the wedding) and I do not want anything too big to happen that will cause us sorrow or shock.  I mean, we are almost there!  I just want to get it over with! 

All the same, this “fear” that I sometimes feel (or create?) makes me lean more to God and to His perfect plan for us. I remember one of our favorite lines during prayer time, “God allowed us to meet (Muntinlupa meets Manila) even if we were not praying for each other or for anyone.  Ngayon pa kaya? That we are sincerely and fervently seeking God for our togetherness? So I (we) know He will be faithful just as He was faithful from the beginning. 

I'm convinced that God, who began this good work in you,
will carry it through to completion on the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6