WARNING SIGN

Tawa. Iyak. Tawa. Iyak.

That's what I did while I was listening to Julianne's testimony and songs.




Amongst her beautifully written music, what caught my heart was the song the "Warning Sign". I was not able to stop myself from recalling my foolish days. It was the season when I decided pursuit an ungodly relationship. Here is a part of the song that one way or another happened to me.

(My) You're spirit may be willing 
But (my) you're flesh is very weak
(I) You fall the very minute that (I) you think (I) you can handle it

Like Julianne, I grew up inside the church, a.k.a "christian" since birth. However, though I already knew who God was  I still chose to direct my love life - I did not bother to look at the warning signs. Or maybe I did, but I still decided to "go ahead".  I was 25 that time so I thought I was too old to wait longer.  Baka kasi mapag-iwanan na ako! So since there was an "available" guy, I snatched the opportunity.  However, in the deepest of my heart I know it was a warning sign.

You were a warning sign
A RED LIGHT 
Flashing before my very eyes
I should've never underestimated
A warning sign
A RED LIGHT
Was meant to keep us alive
We should've heeded not proceeded with all this

That time, I thought God's "no" was just a suggestion. I did not know that my disobedience will cause me to be in the darkest days of my life.  

The look in your eyes disarming
The way that you moved
Fascinated me
How could I disapprove
When I already had a feeling about you

Those days were awful, painful and scary. Since I fought for that messy relationship for a long time, I have already convinced myself that I was meant to be a part of it -- that being involved in a complicated relationship was somewhat "God's will".  (Yes, that's how stupid I was)

While I was listening to Julianne's story ( the part that she was a pastor's kid) I felt amazed on how God spoke to her freshly in her recent years.   I realized God can re-introduce Himself to people who were "christians all their lives".

I remember re-meeting Jesus in the lowliest part of my life.  It was so fresh that as if I did not meet Him yet in Sunday School, or in DVBS or in the missions trip I have been too.  It was like magic.  He made all things new. And what was even more interesting was that Jesus did it Himself.  It was so direct that I couldn't say "no".  He rescued me from the sin and wrong relationship I was in.

Though He gave me all the flashing lights from the very beginning of my past relationship, He was still so kind to get me out of it.  That's how God is. He did it to me and I am very sure He also could do it to you.

Here is a copy of the lyrics of Warning Sign by Julianne Tarroja.

"WARNING SIGN"
Music & Lyrics by: Julianne Tarroja


Oh so easily 
You seeped into my sanity
Oh see smoothly
Dissecting every part of me

Oh you came across as someone who knew
Exactly how to read between my lines
Like I was spelling it our for you

The look in your eyes disarming
The way that you moved
Fascinated me
How could I disapprove
When I already had a feeling about you

You were a warning sign
A RED LIGHT 
Flashing before my very eyes
I should've never underestimated
A warning sign
A RED LIGHT
Was meant to keep us alive
We should've heeded not proceeded with all this

Oh we reciprocated to each other undeniably
We could've had something good if only
We cared enough to take it slow

Oh we spilling myself too fast too early
I should've known better than to let you get to me
Now you're slipping through my finger tips
The thought of you keep lingers

The look in your eyes disarming
The way that you moved
Fascinated me
How could I disapprove
When I already had a feeling about you

You were a warning sign
A RED LIGHT 
Flashing before my very eyes
I should've never underestimated
A warning sign
A RED LIGHT
Was meant to keep us alive
We should've heeded not proceeded with all this

You're spirit may be willing 
But you're flesh is very weak
You fall the very minute that you think you can handle it