THE UGLY MOMMA

I was carrying a cranky Risen and a bag on each shoulder at Alabang Town Center yesterday. I was deliberately trying not to perspire as I walked from Payless to the parking lot near the church.  It was the longest walk I had with Risen so far.  He was crying, the straps of the bags were falling, and sweat were all over my face --- I could not even wipe it.  I felt so ugly.

Since yesterday was also the day before I turn 35 (I was sooooo emotional), and because I was also in disbelief that I am five years away of being 40, plus the hair that I could only manage with a blow dry,  not to mention the unfashionable dress I was in, I sure felt ugly.

I am the ugly Momma!

Finally, I had the hug I have been waiting all day from Bryan.  I did not feel like crying anymore but I still felt ugly.

I wanted to tell myself it is normal to feel ugly in many occasions, however, I did not want to because I think it is a lame excuse to not "fix" myself.  I am a no-make-up girl and I have to admit I can leave the house straight from the shower but since I am 35 I don't think this would work for me anymore.  I have to be mindful of what I wear, put on powder and shades of pink on my face.

I can't be losyang at 35.  I just can't be!! huhuhuhuhu

So I promise to take care of myself.  To dress appropriately and be pretty.

I will make sure to not be losyang at 35.  I.just.have.to.not.be.

And if you are reading this and you also feel ugly, do something about it too, okay?  At our age, hindi na pwede ang mabait lang, dapat maganda din.  Bawal maging losyang! :)