Showing posts with label pray in faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pray in faith. Show all posts


I was reading Genesis and answering the reflection questions found on the booklet Marriage, God's Design for Intimacy by James and Martha Reapsome when I came across these two verses.  

Genesis 2: 8-9
Then the Lord God planted a garden in Eden in the east, and there he placed the man he had made.  The Lord God made all sorts of trees grow up from the ground—trees that were beautiful and that produced delicious fruit. In the middle of the garden he placed the tree of life and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. 

Genesis 3:6
The woman was convinced. She saw that the tree was beautiful and its fruit looked delicious, and she wanted the wisdom it would give her. So she took some of the fruit and ate it. Then she gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it, too. 

image not mine

Looking back, I saw two things:
1. God provided the physical needs of Adam and Eve by planting all sorts of trees
2. Eve "forgot" that God made all this when she was tempted by the serpent to eat the forbidden fruit


I should never forget that God has provided and met all my needs.  As a wife and mother I have a tendency to worry, over think and dream of "better" things for me and my family.  This verses reminded me that God has given me the things that are enough.  Instead of clamoring and asking for more, I should see that a LOT of things were already provided so I should be more than thankful.  I know that the world has always something good to offer.  Our earthly life has always a better option, a grander alternative and unlimited opportunities, however, I should only take the options that God freely gives.  That as I live, there will be many offers (for me and my family) that "seems beautiful and delicious" (just like the forbidden fruit) but I should remember in my heart what is important, what is precious in God's sight, what is eternal and what will give Him the real glory.


This is a painful rebuke.  In many occasions, I have taken the fruit that the world offers without remembering that You have already provided.  Help me to continously see You and what will bring honor to You.  Strip me away of my bragging rights, because I only have You.  I can only be proud because of You.


One day Bryan just told me he wanted to see a Cardiologist because he feels something uncomfortable in his chest (part where the heart is).  I did not ponder on it up until his doctor told us that she is a little upset with his ECG and Treadmill results.

It was suggested by the same doctor for Bry to undergo Doputamine Stress Examination.  In this test,  a medicine will be injected to make his heart beat faster.  Then while the heart rate is fast, a 2D echo will be administered.

 I started crying buckets of tears because I fear for husband's life.  It may be OA but at 33 and only being married for nearly 3 years, it should just be visits to the OB and not a Cardiologist.  I was like, "heart problems agad? Hindi ba pwedeng toothache muna?!".

We prayed hard and long.  We also asked the people very close to us.  For the first time in my life, I did not talk about it to my friends.  I just mentioned it to very few people because sharing it to others would make me feel that it was really happening.  I did not like the idea of saying "my husband has a heart condition" -- mentioning it was just really heartbreaking.

While waiting for the schedule of his Doputamine test, we agreed to consult another Cardiologist from Makati Med that I know personally.  However, as we were having breakfast, Bryan felt a little discomfort again that we decided to head to the ER of Makati Med.  I drove and I dropped my husband to the ER.  

Bryan was a little anxious while being surrounded by doctors.  Blood tests, X-ray, ECG were done to him and his vital signs were also monitored.  At this time, I knew in my heart he will be fine but seeing us like this was sad.  

After 2-3 hours the ER doctor cleared Bryan (with negative result on his tests -  PRAISE GOD!) and we were advised to go home and visit a Cardio specialist right after.

taken after the ER Doctor tells us he is fine

We went up to the third floor to visit Dra. Pastores (a former parent at ICA, a school where I taught).  She double checked the results and agreed with the ER Doctor.  However, she told us to still do Stress Treadmill Test (not the Doputamine anymore) this time with 2D Echo just to completely rule out our doubts.  

All in all, we are thankful for the experience because it made us check our eating habits.  Now, we do not eat Pork and Beef at home.  We agreed to just consume meat when we are outsise the house. So we are like vegetarians at home which we are really enjoying by the way.  

To add, we are so grateful for the healthcards.  God indeed provides!  It would be challenging to shell out a big amount of cash for tests and consultations with such a short notice.  Buti na lang we have healthcards talaga!!

We were scared but we felt God's assurance of help and healing.  He also used people to bless and comfort us. To all those who prayed, especially to CCF Muntinlupa, thank you!  You are truly  God sent!  



For the past weeks, every time I wake up I always tell myself that... "today, I would be the best wife and mother everrrrr".  With this in mind, I think of the perfect breakfast and make a mental list of the things I have to accomplish. However,  by mid-morning, things start to swell up with the situations I can't control (I get impatient, students cancel or book impromptu lessons, Risen longs for extra attention, etc). By lunch time, I am already a cranky mother who is so excited to feed, bathe and put Risen in his bed - I have already forgotten that "today, I would be the best wife and mother everrrrr".

Good thing, God pointed me to another thing I have forgotten - my morning devotions.  I read the Bible but I usually do it when things have calm down (mostly in the afternoon).  I realized that what I need to do is to spend my time with the Lord first so I can happily work on the task ahead of me.

Maybe this is why Mama is one of the best wives and mothers I know.  Since high school, I have always  always seen her Daily Bread and used up Bible on top of our dining table.  At times, when I wake up earlier than expected, I see her praying on the same spot.  Yes, my mom is very prayerful and she chooses to hear from God first before her world gets crazy.

My days have been messy for the past few weeks but I am glad that tomorrow I can be the best wife and mother by honoring my time with God first.  It would be difficult to wake up earlier but I know God (and me too) has been missing our morning sessions.  May I be able to always remember that Jesus also did this while He was on earth.  May He become my inspiration to make my early mornings right.

Before daybreak the next morning, 
Jesus got up and went out to an isolated place to pray. 
Mark 1:35

BAR 2014: Bryan Speaks Up - From Bitterness to Surrender


Yes. True. I did. It hurts. It’s heart breaking. Disappointing. Frustrating.

Waking up at 4 a.m. to read cases and books for several years? Memorizing laws and analysing cases of people I don’t know? All these are in vain. Staying and reading in the library for nearly 10 hours a day? Useless. Saving an amount to sustain law school needs? These are all scrap. Childhood dream of becoming a lawyer? Shattered. Sacrifices of my wife, parents, in-laws, schoolmates, bar ops, churches and friends? All wasted.  My son, Risen, having no father for the entire month of the bar exams? Worthless.

But this morning, I have this from the book of Psalms…

“Lord, You have been our dwelling place in all generations… Even from everlasting to everlasting, You are God.” (Psalms 90:1-2)

“It’s good to contemplate God’s eternity in the light of man’s frailty… God is eternal. He is our dwelling place from generation to generation. The eternity we face in His hands… From generation to generation, from everlasting to everlasting, He has been faithful, and He will continue to be faithful.” (Warren Wiersbe, Prayer, Praise and Promises: A Daily Walk Through the Psalms)

Yesterday morning, before knowing that I did not make it, the Lord gave me this…

“He (referring to the psalmist in Psalm 89:46-52) starts with burdens and ends with blessing. He starts with sighing and ends with singing, because he lifts his broken heart unto the Lord in prayer.” (Warren Wiersbe, Prayer, Praise and Promises: A Daily Walk Through the Psalms)

With these, I say…

No cross examination, Your Honor.
No further questions, Your Honor.
I rest my case… not in court… but to You, my Honorable Lord.


P.S. To you who were with us through all these, thank you very much. As He promised, “…your labor in the Lord is not in vain...” (I Corinthians 15:58)

Bryan Eli Bagasin Sadorra
March 27, 2015
(a day after the 2014 bar exam results were released)

Veggie Tales Encounter

I have been praying for something very close to my heart for the longest time (even before I got married). And recently, instead of trust, I have been feeling fear towards this ordeal. Sadly, because I think it is too big to ask, I have been forgetting to pray in faith.  

However, alongside with my Bible reading, God spoke to me through a song from Veggie Tales that I introduced to Risen recently. Little did I know that this would be the Lord's reminder for me today.

God is Bigger that the Boogie Man

You were lying in your bed

You were feeling kind of sleepy
You just could not close your eyes
Because the room was getting creepy

Were those eyeballs in the closet?
Was that Godzilla in the hall?
Was there something big and hairy
Casting shadows on the wall

Now your skin is getting clammy
There's a hundred tiny monsters
Jumping right inside your jammies

God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV
Oh, God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's watching, watching, watching
Watching out for you and me

So, when I'm lying in my bed
And the furniture starts creeping
I'll just laugh and say, "Hey, cut that out!"
And get back to my sleeping

'Cause I know that God's the biggest
And He's watching all the while
So, when I get scared I'll think of Him
And close my eyes and smile!

God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV
Oh, God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's watching, watching, watching
Watching out for you and me

Come on, come on, come on
In bed
I know, I know, I know
I'm not scared

Come on, come on, come on
I know, I know, I know
God's there
Watching out for you and me

Now instead of getting clammy
You just trust that God is gonna
Give that Boogie Man a whammy

God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV
Oh, God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's watching, watching, watching

God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV
Oh, God is bigger, bigger than the Boogie Man
He's watching, watching, watching
Watching out for you and me

Watching, watching, watching
Watching out for you and me