Showing posts with label provision. Show all posts
Showing posts with label provision. Show all posts


I could let go of lotion except that my skin needs it. If I do not moisturize regularly, I will have rashes on my arms and legs.  This condition is hereditary and it can only be tamed by a bottle of lotion with the highest moisture content.

If one buys his own lotion and suppplies for grooming (shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, etc), one would also know that if this has to be bought in one grocery trip, he should be ready to say goodbye to his 1,000 php. Toiletries are expensive.  Agree?  Agree!

However, I am amazed on how God gives me free lotion when one botlle is about to end.  I do not share my skin problem with my relatives and friends abroad, but for some reasons, amongst their pasalubong, I would always find a bottle of lotion.  Believe it or not but in for almost 2 years now, I have never bought a bottle of lotion.  Some people call it luck, I call it God's provision.

Matthew 6:25 

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 



Sometimes when we are in the supermarket, I would see Bryan check out Pringles.  He would get one, study it for 3 or 5 seconds then place it back on the shelf.

We could afford to buy Pringles, but it is something that we can do every pay out.  We have to be "wise" on our spending (basing on the quality and amount) because we only have this much.   Example, when we go to certain restaurants I always make sure I sort of plan what we can have.  I check the menus online or check Metrodeal of they have a good offer.  Not naman depriving ourselves of food (basic need) but just making sure we have the funds to go with it that if we plan to eat our again, pwede.

As many of you know, Bryan is the only one who "works" for us.  I may have freelance job too but we try not to touch it for emergency purposes.  Up until now, we actually do not know how his salary fits.  Not intending on putting down Bryan nor on his ability to provide, but I am sure that the other moms who budget  are also surprised on how a couple of thousands can go miles.  talk about Accounting 101. And in many occasions, may extra pa!  It must really be the Lord!  Ang galing!  Truly, where God leads, He provides.

But yun nga lang, we sometimes can't afford the "other stuff".  The spontaneous, "tara alis tayo".  Or the usual "I am craving for this, I am gonna buy one NOW", or the latest of this gadget and that new something.  We can't.  But again, when I see Risen, who is the reason why I do not have a fixed income, my heart is calmed.  I am totally okay with it.  The Pringles and the other stuff can wait.  As of this season, the little boy badly needs me.

I am sure that the mothers who choose to work have believable and valid reasons.  Each mom does what is best for her family.  Working or stay-at-home, we rock mommies!

And another thing, last week, Bryan got his Pringles!!hahaha

Motherhood: On Being a Stay-At-Home-Mom

I have been fantasizing of being a stay-at-home-mom long before I met Bryan.  I was convinced that this would be my way of raising my children.  However, when I was already in the reality of saying goodbye to my so called career, it dawned on me that it was a difficult choice. Hindi pala madali to let go of a life that you have been into for the longest time.  I had my own set of doubts.   And we, as a couple, had questions, issues and concerns to face.  But since we were both certain that this is what God wants for our little family (we respect those moms who chooses/needs to work), we pushed through with it.

Our first “worry” was money.  Being a full time mom would make us rely on Bryan’s paycheck (who is on study leave now).  With a growing baby to provide for, a house and car to maintain and tummies to feed, this was a big dilemma. We had to compute, re-compute, add, deduct, etc and figure out how we will “live”.  This was very humbling because we were both financially very capable before we got married, and now, we have to suddenly cut on our spending.  Amidst of all the questions on how we will survive, we are comforted that where God leads, He provides.  We never ran out of bills to pay and needs to buy, but up until now, I do not know how God makes it work for us.  He is really our Jehovah Jireh.  He provides!*

To add, being a stay-at-home-mom equals to house-arrest.  Did I tell you I cannot literally stay at home? I have to leave the house every single day.  I am allergic to staying at home 24hours.  This will make me insane!  However, Risen came and he taught me I can.  Kaya naman pala.  Although I must admit that the first two months was the hardest.  I would often secretly cry and ask myself “ito na lang ba talaga buhay ko ngayon? Breastfeed, burp, play with baby, put him to sleep?”  But, it got easier!  On Risen’s third month, chores became manageable, I was able to go out again, meet friends, fix myself and spend time with Bryan.  My life became active and I felt normal again.  Today, I just need to go out at least once a week (church not counted).  Ok na ko with this. hihihi

Third, when we decided that I would be staying at home, I had to force myself to be productive.  We both knew it cannot be always about Risen.  For sanity purposes, I had to do something on the side. And once again, God surprised us with a few writing and online teaching rakets I was able to get.  This did not only add  a few cash on our savings but also gave me contentment. The joy of being able to work and see Risen across the table is something I would not trade for anything.   I am getting paid to watch Risen grow. Ang galing!

Amazing, amazing God!  He truly gives our heart’s desire if we rely on his will and put our faith and trust in Him.   Each day is still a learning process for me (and Bryan) but I am grateful for the chance to raise a boy.  Being a stay-at-home-mom is never easy, but with God’s grace, I count it all joy.