Showing posts with label trying times. Show all posts
Showing posts with label trying times. Show all posts

DELAYS

Delayed flights.  Delayed appointment.  Delayed hotel check-in.  Delayed food service. Delayed salary.  Delayed start of the program. Delayed traffic flow. Don't we just all hate delays? I mean, who likes waiting (especially when you have cranky toddler in tow)? No one, I suppose.

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Recently, God has been teaching me to submit to delays. He has been reminding me to fully trust Him because it will be accomplished in God's time. However, I have to admit that it is difficult because a piece of me wants it now.  In my devotions, in my prayers, I have been asking God why is He allowing us to wait longer .  Why when he can give it to us now.  Why prolong the waiting?

In return, God tells me to still "wait".  

As I begin to write this entry, I am reminded how Sarah, Abraham's wife, chose to have Hagar as a surrogate mother because she believes that God will never accomplish the promise of giving her a son.  She did it her way instead of trusting God's timing.  

Genesis 16:1
1Now Sarai, Abram’s wife, had borne him no children. 
But she had an Egyptian slave named Hagar; 
2so she said to Abram, “The Lord has kept me from having children. 
Go, sleep with my slave; perhaps I can build a family through her.”

Genesis 18:13-14
13Then the Lord said to Abraham,
 “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘Will I really have a child, now that I am old?’ 
14Is anything too hard for the Lord?
 I will return to you at the appointed time next year, and Sarah will have a son.”

My prayer is that I would be able to wait without sinning, without doing it on my won terms.  I hope that the fruit of the Holy Spirit will blossom instead. That I will choose to be kind, understand and see the big hand of God.


BAR EXAMS: When You Wait Then God Says "No/Not Now"

There was a strange feeling of physical pain in my chest when I did not see Bryan's name on the list of bar 2014 passers.  There was like a hole in my heart.  Masakit.  After a second or two, I started weeping  and all I can do is cover my face and say "I am sorry" to Bryan.  All I could do was cry.

I cried because I could not give the title "Atty" to Bryan.  As a wife, I would give anything to my husband.  And it badly hurts me that at this time, what we can only do is be sorry and comfort each other.

We have been waiting and praying for this day since we became bf-gf.  Every night, this has been in our prayers.  We also rallied people to pray for us.  Aside from all of these, Bryan studied hard - really hard.  On our side, we knew we did our part while allowing God to do His. 

However, amidst of our long waiting and praying, God replied with a "No/Not Now" - which at the moment really sounds bad and difficult to deal with.


We still do not know the reason why God allowed this.  Naiiyak pa din ako.  Masakit pa din. But at the end of the day, He remains to be the God who knows what is best for us.  Today, this is what is perfect.  Today, this is what is needed.  Today, this is God's answer to our prayers, to our waiting. Today, the answer is "no". 

Amidst of all the tears, the hugs, and the comfort we try to give to each other, we will not be moved nor question God's faithfulness to us. We have Him, our marriage, each other, Risen, our families, friends, church and support group. We are in pain, but allow us to declare that God is still good and He will continue to be.  All praises to Him!!!